good song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FLsJLzcfrFU&feature=related

one of those days...

yup.

quote.

You are valuable because you exist.
Not because of what you do or what you have done,
but simply because you are.

Max Lucado 


"Hope is not the expectation
that things will turn out well,
but the conviction that something is
worth working for,
however it turns out."

Vaclav Havel


Jesus doesn't give hope by changing the circumstances;
he restores our hope by giving us himself.
And he has promised to stay until the very end.

Max Lucado 

"there is no reason not to follow your heart."

Almost everything--all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure--these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.

Steve Jobs

"Hope is by far one of the most dangerous commitments we make in life."

come what may.

reminders or discoveries?

"May the healing power of loving words calm my mind, comfort my heart, restore my spirit. May the benefit of healing words help me to accept love, help me to enjoy love, help me to give love, today and everyday."
(from a poster in the surgical ward at CMC)



If there is one thing I have learned from India it would be...


Risk everything for love.

He risked everything for us and lost everything, now we can risk everything and receive more than imaginable. How else then can we live? How else then can we be truly alive?

So then maybe it should be said..

Risk everything to love.


Thank you, India.

INDIA.

How about getting off of these antibiotics
How about stopping eating when I'm filled up
How about them transparent dangling carrots
How about that ever elusive kudo

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

How about me not blaming you for everything
How about me enjoying the moment for once
How about how good it feels to finally forgive you
How about grieving it all one at a time

Thank you India
Thank you terror
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you frailty
Thank you consequence
Thank you thank you silence

The moment I let go of it was
The moment I got more than I could handle
The moment I jumped off of it was
The moment I touched down

How about no longer being masochistic
How about remembering your divinity
How about unabashedly bawling your eyes out
How about not equating death with stopping

Thank you India
Thank you providence
Thank you disillusionment
Thank you nothingness
Thank you clarity
Thank you thank you silence

yeah yeah
ahh ohhh
ahhh ho oh
ahhh ho ohhhhhh
yeaahhhh yeahh Thank You -Alanis Morisette

L.E.W.I.S.

"Our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are halfhearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies on a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at sea. We are far too easily pleased."

-C.S. Lewis

hearts.

"There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear." 1 John 4:18


"We love because He first loved us."  1 John 4:19


"Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails." 1 Corinthians 13:7


In Your love, my salvation lies in Your love.


"I want you. All of you... forever."


"The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me."

outstretched arms

one day she decided to forgive herself.

"its blue blue blue"

Don't know why you do the things you do do do
Holding it together with some glue glue glue
Your favorite color isn't red it's blue blue blue
No one knows a red red rose

So you never get the things you need need need
Where it's hurt you cover up
with weeds weeds weeds
Open it back up and let it bleed bleed bleed
No one knows it's a red red rose

I'm not yours, you're not mine
Hope you find love in time

Memories come back like falling leaves leaves leaves
Never get to love by saying please please please
Praying only gets you on your knees knees knees
No one knows a red red rose

Take your time putting on
your clothes clothes clothes
Look into the mirror and you pose pose pose
Learn to live with everything you chose chose chose
No one knows a red red rose

no looking back.

In Christ Alone

oh oh

Go Ahead and Laugh- The Sudden Lovelys

the sweet....reminders.

Oh when you're gone the night is cold as it is long
And the hurt that made you humble, wanna write about
Is the love the made you crumble from the inside out
And I believe in a new day to come
that it's always darkest before the dawn

Moving in slow motion, baby
Still I’m moving on

Oh I can see there ain't no magic words that set you free
Still I'm hoping you are gonna take me as I am
Even though I am a fool and such a stubborn man
And I believe in a new day to come
That it's always darkest before the dawn

Moving in slow motion, baby
Still I’m moving on

 I left new england for the city life
Oh I got songs I wanna sing
Went down Virginia got a country wife
Gave that country girl of mine a ring
Yeah I gave her my grandma's diamond ring

Oh I can see there ain't no magic words that set you free
Still I'm hoping you are gonna take me as I am
Even though I am a fool and such a stubborn man
And I believe in a new day to come
That it's always darkest before the dawn

Moving in slow motion, baby
Still I’m moving on

repeat. repeat. repeat.

" “turn” and “behold”.  The promise that our transformation comes from our ongoing growth in intimacy with Christ.  We turn to Christ; He transforms us.  The simplicity and assurance of this path is, for me, perhaps the most encouraging truth in the New Testament because I’m liberated from having to custom build my own life.  My responsibilities reside in learning how to develop intimacy with Christ.  His job is to change me; His promise is that He will."                                                                                 -Dahlstrom

Beautiful Things- Gungor
(thanks k-dog)

listen:

"it is better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all."

im reading a really good book...

"The arms that embrace us are wide enough to embrace those who hurt us and those we have hurt as well."

"When I can wish them well I know I have traveled down the path of real forgiveness."

"To bless someone is to ask God to accomplish His purpose in their life."

"You can't shut down on the inside without quelling the very passion that makes the journey worthwhile."

"We don't mend each others' brokenness, we just hold it tightly."

"Obedience goes before our hearts and carries them where they would not normally go."

"Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing has yet been done." -C.S. Lewis

"Love anything and surely your heart will be wrung." -C.S. Lewis

love story.

and i know that you don't realize how much i gave you
and i promise i would do it all again
just to be with you
i've done everything
theres no price i did not pay
just to be with you
i gave everything
yes i gave my life away
just to be with you
just to be with you

just to be with you.

"when you feel just like a tourist in the city you were born....."

You Are A Tourist- Deathcab for Cutie

When there's a burning in your heart
An endless fury in your heart
Build it bigger than the Sun
Let it grow
Let it grow
And there's a burning in your heart
Don't be alarmed

(This... Fire... Grows... High...)

When there's a doubt in your mind
'Cos you think it all the time
Framing rights into wrongs
Move along
Move along
When there's a doubt in your mind

When there's a burning in your heart
And you think it'll rest apart
Oh, there's nothing left to fear
Save the tears
Save the tears
When there's a burning in your heart

And if you feel just like a tourist in the city you were born
Then, it's time to go
And if you find your destination with so many different places to call home
And if you call yourself a villain,
In the story you have written
It's plain to see
That sometimes the best intentions
Are in need of redemptions
Which you agree
If so, please show me

When there's a burning in your heart,
When there's a burning in your heart, (This... Fire... Grows... High...)
When there's a burning in your heart, (This... Fire... Grows... High...)
When there's a burning in your heart, (This... Fire... Grows... High...)
(This... Fire... Grows... High...)
When there's a burning in your heart.

Quiet.

Before everything- I am yours. I will praise you because I am wonderfully made. I was made for loving you. Deep down, deeper than I even know, I am loved, delighted in, and beautiful.




(teach me to believe.)

ordinary individual

"A hero is an ordinary individual who finds the strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles."
-Christopher Reeve

O, music.

You Are The Only One I Love

Grey or Blue 

till He returns or calls me home

In Christ alone, my hope is found

He is my light, my strength, my song

This cornerstone, this solid ground

Firm through the fiercest drought and storm

What heights of love, what depths of peace

When fears are stilled, when strivings cease

My comforter, my all-in-all

Here in the love of Christ I stand..


..For I am His and He is mine

Bought with the precious blood of Christ..

..Jesus commands my destiny
..

..Till He returns or calls me home

Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand